Summer in Manila

Summer so far.

1. IT IS FUCKING HOT HERE
2. HAVEN'T BEEN DOING ANYTHING PRODUCTIVE, I FEEL LIKE A LAZY ASS BUM.
3. HAVEN'T BEEN WORKING OUT. (I START IN MAY. I SWEAR!!!)
4. IT'S SO HOT AGAIN!!!
5. I'M FUCKING BORED. IT'S THE SAME THING EVERYDAY. BUM IN THE DAY, BALL AT NIGHT AND BUM AGAIN AFTER. I NEED SOMETHING NEW TO HAPPEN.
6. I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO UPCOMING TRIPS WITH D7
7. PEOPLE IN THE NORTH ARE HUGE PUSSYS. THEY'RE TOO DAMN HARD TO COORDINATE WITH. NOBODY REPLIES SO HOW THE HELL CAN I ORGANIZE SOMETHING?!
8. STILL DAMN HOT.
9. AND I'M STILL BORED.
10. AND LASLY IT'S STILL HOT.

I wanna do something productive but i can't. theres absolutely nothing to do. I mean i read. i study french (what the hell is wrong with me) and i play ball. but still at the end of my day i still feel empty. i need something to spice things up! oh God please let it come soon or i won't be enjoying my summer.

Ghost Boat

I read this article in yahoo news (where i learn more from than in school) about a yacht floating off the coast of australia. here,s the thing, the boat was ompletely fucntional/functioning. The computers were all turned on, a laptop was left open and a meal was set out on the table with the food and utensils in place. there was no damage to the boat of whatsoever, no sign of it going through a natural calamity or an accident. in other words, everything was in place. except for one thing, the crew or no one for that matter was on the boat. how freaky is that?! what the hell happened to the people?!

I have three and a half theories as to what happened.

Theory 1. The people were actually deep sea diving and forgot to put the anchor down. so right now they're somewhere in the ocean without a boat. the boat must've floated away or possibly found at the time of the dive and was hauled back to shore leaving the people behind.

Theory 2. They were abducted by aliens.

Theory 3.a All of them fell off at the same time and had no way of getting back onto the boat.

Theory 3b. All of them were pulling a jack and rose scene when a big wave hit the boat and threw ll of them off.

So anyway those are what i came up with. what do you think? comment and give me some of your theories as to what happened. Let's have fun! hahahaha

stop over in japan

were here in japan right now for a hour and a half long stop over. first of all, can i just say, my blogger is in effin japanese! hahahaha oh well i was able to figure my way through it. but its weird!!! no matter what i do everythings in freakin japanese. haha anyway.

i saw pursuit of happyness (to those that don't know, it's purposely spelt with a "y". watch the movie, you'll find out why.) while in the plane. anyway, i always knew this movie was something but i never knew it would move me the way it did. X thousands of feet in the air i find myself moved to tears (okay, maybe just a tear) at the idea of accomplishing the impossible. Chis Gardener is a man that should be recognized around the world, not only will his story inspire people to do the same but it will make our earth a world of wishful dreamers that aspire for nothing less than what they dreamed of. a world where mediocrity doesn't exist. A world with people like that, to me, is full of endless possibilities, they can make anything happen and to have that, i must say, is a world short of perfect.

"It was right then that I started thinkin' about Thomas Jefferson, the Declaration of Independence, and the part about our right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I remember thinkin', how did he know, to put the pursuit part in there, that maybe happiness is something we can only pursue, and maybe we could actually never have it, no matter what. How did he know that?"

Having seen that movie, i feel ive been given a new life to go after what makes me happy.
"you're the only one that can say i'm not good enough and even if you tell me i'm not good enough, maybe then i still won't believe you."

Thank you Ginj for your contribution to this. =)

so true

if love wasn't so hard then everyone would be taking a go at it then it wouldn't be special anymore. - Nica

coming home

im a few hours away from leaving for manila. as much as i complained about gaining weight and getting bored here i find a sudden change of heart. i guess it comes with havng to say goodbye. i hate goodbye'. i was never good at them. so to all my relatives ive hung out with spoke to and spent time with in this trip. Goodbye to all of you and see you soon!!!

There was one person in my last trip to the states whom i never got to say goodbye to properly. it's funny because you actually live in manila. even though you'll never read this, i can't help but write about you because coming home reminds me of you.

i know it was my fault why you left. i made you wait for so long, took you for granted and never cared about you the way i should've. i'm not bitter about anything, i know it was my fault. so now i have to pay for that. don't get me wrong, my feelings for you are gone. but, i can't hep but bring along that lingering trail of what we used to be mainly because i never said goodbye to you. you told me, you'd wait. i told you i just needed my time in the states. i did need that time but you never waited. it's fine, you waited so long and that was more than i ever deserved. so thank you for that.

as i lay in bed last night, i only had one thought. call it a stroll down memory lane but i couldn't help but remember that time i woke up at 430 in the morning, dressed up for school, passed by mini stop to buy your favorite breakfast food and wake yaya M up early in the morning only to wait by your bed for you to wake up. (i remember doing this to make up for some shit i did to you. turns out, it's one of the clearer memories of us to me.) your eyes opened and you gave me that smile that you make when you're happy. that big crescent smile you give me whenever i did something for you. i remember telling you i had to leave for school. i kissed your forehead and stood but you pulled me to bed back and asked if you could stay in my arms for a while. i remember saying one thing, "i'm sorry but i'm late. i love you and i'll see you later".

i never saw you again.

now that im thinking clearly about what happened. that morning i saw you was the climax of events between us. you're probably wondering why i never called or texted that day. i do to. but now that we're older and away from that.i see it clearly now. it was one catastrophic event that was all part of our cosmic revelation. that one event summed everything up. you, me, what we had.

so now that im coming home again. i'd like to say goodbye to you. you were nothing but great to me and i failed to see that. i'm sorry.

funny thing is the last time i came home, i thought i was coming home to someone. i was excited for that. turns out that i came home to no one. this time around, it's still the same. only now, i know that i'm coming home to no one.

okay enough drama crap. i said goodbye and thats that! i'll see you when you cross my path again!

Blades of Glory

okay. you want a feel good uber light movie to cheer you up? watch blades of glory. its hecka funny. i almost died of laughter. seriously! i was laughing my damn head and ass off! 4.5 stars from me!

a retort to my friends blog

INCOSISTENCY ON THE OTHERS PART IS THE FUCKING HUGE LOCK TO THE DOOR. haha sorry anna. i just had to say.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I TRY OR AT THE VERY LEAST CARE.

ADMU checklist

I did not make this check list. i just found it on my friends multiply site. so forgive the grammar. i don't get what tense is being used here and im too lazy to correct it! you'll figure it out!


(X) eat at Manang's - HELL YEAH! manangs at T-TH! i miss those times!!!
(X) learn the alma mater - uh yeah like most of it.
( ) get on the dean's list - deins list lang eh.
(X) sleep on a bench - Heck yeah. i can fall asleep anywhere.
( ) be a TNT - nah. wouldn't wanna be either. unless...for the freshie hotties.... hmmm
(X) jog around the campus in the evening - YEAP. it's pretty nice actually. you should also try getting caught in the bathroom of the gesu at 2 in the morning hahaha
(X) visit the art gallery - yeap to sleep and to escape the heat.
(X) know at least one xerox lady, manong, or technician by name - YEAH! si chief in the cov courts.
(X) get a Jesuit for a teacher - if HS counts, yeah.
( ) itch from higad bites - no way. i'm careful.
(X) have gotten an F in something - History. dumbass. =)
(X) have taken a crap in school - need i say more? HAHA
(X) watch a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game - even before i started studying in Ateneo!
(X) give a powerpoint presentation - usually what i resort to. it's easy eh!
(X) study in the caf upstairs - uhm. yeah i think.
(X) watch a T.A play - fil requirements.
( ) sit on the SEC ledge and watch the stars - no.. sounds like a plan though
( ) eat in Full House, Martha's Kitchen, and Ken Afford - never... are they any good?
(x) sleep in the lib - yeah like the rest of the whole student body.
( ) visit Mr. San Andres - who the fuuuuck?
(X) go to the chapel - yeah i visit once in a while. when in need of peace
(X) have gotten a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers in the middle of the quad - doesnt this happen to everyone?
(X) cut class with your block to watch a movie - block? nope. but with someone yeah.
(X) sign up for those institutional (i.e. difficult but brilliant) teachers - i think so.
( ) go to CERSA night - uhhh what the fuck?
(X) have tried siomai rice - yeah, but after the first time i got food poisoning. so never again! friends beware!
( ) learn how to smoke - uhm... im not sure haha
(X) fall in love - how can you not fall in love?! you've got the trees, the school, the environment you can fall in love with just about anything in ateneo, let alone anyone!
(X) actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib - errr, wala pa akong nahihiram sa lib. - yeah.. FUCK! I HAVE OVERDUE LIBRARY BOOKS! TANGINA!
(X) play cards during your free time - yep. it's a freshie thing.
(X) dress in business attire - yeap. for theo. which wasnt needed pala. stupid ass.
(X) learn to stay awake for more than 24 hours straight - yeap. thats ateneo for you!( ) have gotten side comments from ASSOC - once again.. what the fuck?!
(X) take Saturday classes - NSTP?
(X) go to your immersion - Lupang Pangako!
( ) eat Food for After Thought sandwiches - EH?!
(X) get a boyfriend/girlfriend - yeah. i think you can count that. ahaha

(x) take time to read the vandalism in the CR doors - yeah. fuuuny.
(x) watch Minsan Lang Sila Bata and Macho Dancer for class- minsan lang sila bata. but macho dancer? hmmmm sounds interesting though! does anyone know where i can watch? haha
(X) do a last minute paper <--- yeap. i can write 2 page papers (worth A's) in ten minutes now!
(x) have spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures - yeah putangina yan! hassle! every start of the sem!
(X) get exempted from final exams - yeah. physics i think.

(X) attend a college mass - yeah

( ) promise to quit smoking - fuck no
( ) play hide-and-seek in the mini-forest - oh my god! this sounds like fun!!!!! miel miel miel!!!!!
(X) know where the best restrooms are on campus - top floor gonzaga. you have it to yourself which means you can lock. it also has everything you need there.
(X) join an org - think i'm part of two actually haha
(X) allow yourself to make mistakes - i always do. everyone does!
(X) take summer classes - fil 12 haha
( ) admire the sacred heart statue in the evening - mmm what are we talking about?
(X) make a video for a project - yeah. almost every sem.
( ) have a crush on a teacher - mmm nope.
( ) attend a Jesuit retreat - not yet.
(X) have gotten a parking ticket - many
(X) come to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes - i think everyone's done this
( ) learn how to use the Bayantel pay phones - nope.
(X) participate in school activities - yeah i'm sure! just not sure what
(X) catch the Blue Babble Battalion tryouts - in support of my friends
(X) ride a tricycle on campus - yeah when i'm tamad to drive
(X) find a tambayan - many!
( ) admire the marikina valley at night - how?! and where?!
(X) go drinking along Katipunan - yeap. who hasn't
(X) learn how to beg for a higher grade - yeap! here's a tip, have a drink with the teacher. i got a grade i didnt deserve! haha
( ) use your cuts wisely - naaah. cutting is never wise.
(X) volunteer to be class beadle - always what i do. haha
(X) had the worst lottery schedule for reg - been getting pretty okay numbers so far..
(X) admire the trees on campus - yeah why not?! nature!
(X) have forgotten about your freecut and gone to that class - many times. i dont listen in class. i rely on my ever loving blockmates.
( ) eat in the ISO canteen - not yet!!! everyone says its good there though!!!
( ) be active in your org - hahaha no.
( ) have signed up on an ACP class just because the girl or guy u like signed up for it - ACP!? again. What the fuck??
( ) get as many app forms as you can during the job fair - again. wtf.
(x) learn how to cram - i rule at cramming.
(x) sell tickets (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere - nope.
(x) save money to Xerox all of your seatmate's notes - save to xerox? haha
(x) have accidentally seen a make-out session - i think the other way around. hahahaha kididng
( ) check out the Meron Lagoon and Lambingan Bridge - can anyone point me to these places???
(x) have dozed off in class - always
(x) learn how to work with groupmates from hell - yeah. but im usually the one from hell.
(x) perfect the art of parking on campus - carpool baby!
(x) had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus - yeah! them fucks caught me thrice without my id. now i have a major offence for it.
(x) develop a love for sisig - always had that.
(x) learn how to pronounce AEGIS properly - uh.. ey-jiz?
( ) have used typing rooms at the library - where?!
(x) have reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function - yup! beadling!
( ) have asked the library for an endorsement to research in other libraries - is this possible?!
(x) have lost a perfectly functioning umbrella - yeah that was my nice turquoise esprit one! that thing helped me get chicks attention!
(x) have used consultation hours properly - when in need.
(x) Looked forward to lab breakage refund, in case you didn't break any equipment- i dont really look forward to it. it's a pleasant surprise though!
(X) visit the Guidance Office - yeah. once or twice.
(X) and Infirmary - hmmmm to help someone!

New York again

okay, i take back what i said about new york. haha i love it here. it IS cold, but you get used to it after a while. sure, it gets pretty boring here in tappan (peacefull) but manhattan makes up for it. a 15min drive to sweet chaos. manhattan isn't what we usually see in movies (you know, the disorder and crap) it's a little less than what's usually portrayed. infact, i'd consider the place pretty sane. call it a makati if you may. well yeah, it is like a makati but still makati's nothing compared to that. i most especially loved central park. i kinda wish we had one of those in manila. if we did... i'd probably be there almost every day. i don't know. its the idea of a place's unbelievable serenity in the middle of chaos that draws me to it. one minute you see people running, a fast car zooming by or a fire truck zipping and screaming past you and another you're in the middle of a park surrounded by trees and silence in th form of harmonic noise. it's like finding your refuge from the true world. your refuge from the shit that goes on around. now ,THAT is something. IMAGINE having that.

It's one am. im sleepy and tired of playing with my new toy. i think i'll play with it tom again hehe YAY! oh and waterbed's suck. its so damn hard to move around in it. you sink into the sides of the bed... i don't know. maybe im just too heavy. hahah oh well. goodnight world.